9/100 It's a working Sunday

It's a working Sunday. I haven't worked on a Sunday for quite a while now. What I really mean is that I haven't devoted my time to my business for some time now. Sot feels good and strange when you'd been away and you have to jump into it. I have loads of things to keep up it.

I don't like working on Sunday although its the most important day for the business. By working on Sunday, it means that your business is growing. My teammate confirmed my opinion that the format of the seminar is such a waste of time because speakers will go over time, will start repeating themselves and it seem that they do so just to kill time. The most important part of the meeting is actually the very last hour. By that time, the person have already sat through 8 hours of information and as if it's not enough, they are giving 24 hours to think and mull over the info just to decide 'yes' or 'no' to the business.

I am so confused because I loved the idea of the business-the wellness business. Yet, I really don't so many things about the organization. I feel like I am contradicting my desires, my intentions because of my feeling about the organization's executives are borderline negative. It's the way they do things I really don't agree with.

I could go along and do what I am suppose to do but I can't feel enthusiastic about the situation. I am wondering if I can truly believe that is my way that I can achieve my desires. I am certainly if I stay in my regular job, then it would be like staying in a marriage just for the children's sake. But if I continue this on these parallel courses then I am in a bad marriage and in another bad relationship on the side. Oy vay.

So today I am grateful for the following:

1. Now I am ready to do real work for my business and put money into it again. I didn't advertise last month because I was feeling overwhelmed however, I found out that last month's lots were all incomplete and it would have been a throwing good money after bad if I advertised.
2. Even though it was a working Sunday, I got to meet lots of my teammates that I haven't seen in a while. It wasn't so stressed out but rather relaxing.
   
3. I began reading a new book. After neglecting reading for a while, now I am making time to read again. Reading books and not only e-books or e-articles on the net.
4. Even though I had a guest and she couldn't make it tomorrow, I get to go to the party and I get to go to yoga tomorrow. Yeah!
5. 9 out of 10 said that I am looking slimmer, which is a bonus because I haven't been trying to lose weight. Just trying to get more exercise (yoga) into my schedule.

Today's affirmation: I now desire a richer, fuller, and more abundant life and that desire is becoming my everyday reality.

It's been a long day and tomorrow is the start of another week of the regular job. I can't wait until I can resolve this dual lives that I am living. Good night and see you again tomorrow.

Warmly,

Ms. Mak