A new job? A new career?

What is in it for me? I have to ask myself that question.

Today, my boss announced the sale of the company to another organization. 95% she said. There is still that 5% that tio the scale to the other side. She have done this before by saying that she is sure we were getting this or that project. Then the project fall through and all hope shatter.

Actually I knew this coming about three weeks ago. She kinda spill it out in a drunk rant about things that are happening. I didn't right then because I been wanting to leave the company for sometime now. When she announce the probably sale of the company again I now so sure I am going with her.

I must admit that I'm excited for the company because it's a good sign that the company is going on the right path. The company is worth something in the outside market. It's a very good sign for the company. But what is in for me?

I am not sure. I really don't fit in the company to begin with. The company, as it, will be completely transformed into something completely different as it stands now. I really don't fit in the structure of the old company, what more in this new company?

I checked out the website. I checked what positions are available in the other company. Again, I really don't fit in.

I know that I am guarantee a position but as what? I can write my own job description and perhaps negotiate a new salary. I have to ask myself the question what is in it for me?

My fear is rearing its ugly head. And the worst thing for me is I really can't discuss this with nor do I want to discuss my deepest fear with them. My deepest fear is that I go on to a great new position and again get bored or disillusioned because my time is not my own.

I just have to wait and see where the river is flowing and go with the tide, keeping in mind that I still want at least 100000 a month whihc is 4 times what I am making now.